It's ME

One of the smses i received "Pls dun be mad". I wasn't mad... i was upset. Coz.. I don't like hearing 'no'. That's why i don't ask unless i know it's not a 'no' or unless I am prepared in expectation of a 'no'.

I think i tried too hard to be nice... but it's just me, i can't change the way I am. If u can't stand me being nice... go find some other frens that aren't so nice. It's better to have me as a nice fren rather than have the cold me... believe me, u won't be able to stand the chill.

I didn't mean to show that i was upset.. but i had just reached home and the traffic wasn't any help. I was tired. After 'buka puasa' i was up in my bed resting and dozed off several times... the several times i opened my eyes were when my phone received sms from my fren, one of them being the abovesaid... as a result of me replying with indefinite non-committal smses which includes "wateva". I was already not in a good mood, i was sleeping... that is the kind of smses i send. At least i did reply when in the 1st place i chose to ignore and deal with them after i'm done sleeping. I was expecting the sms to come anyway ;)

But later, i did apologized for that "wateva" sms... it was uncalled for. It wasn't fair either for me to suddenly burst on a small matter, not giving my fren the benefit of the doubt. I just want it known.. i want my fren to know me better... because i don't think i've shared much of myself to this fren compared to my other frens (of course, I've known the others longer).


Last wednesday...

KI asked me to go with her to meet her fans. I went along. I thot it was just a small gathering... it was quite a turn out despite the day being a working day and puasa. KI was very beautiful that day :)

I was impressed by how she mixed around with her fans... she is so cool and so herself. I can't help but smile and laugh out when she cracked her silly jokes hehehe. I think with good management, she'd be the new sweetheart. She's definitely different from the sister. She may not have such talent as the sister, she does have a big heart and a personality people will love.

I want so much for her to be successful... if i have the time, i would help but too bad i hv my final semester now... i'll help out if i can find some time to spare. :)