Mode: Share & Care

Time to share & care...

To begin with... Mama's Op went smoothly. Mama's recovering but still it's hard for her to move around. The uterus got too big bcoz of the growth so they had to cut along her bikini line.. all the way to the sides! She's strong.. she's doing OK. But i do feel sorry for her, having to entertain frens who come to visit. It's tiring and it hurts. Relatives keep on coming to stay over at our place. And i hate it when they come unannounced coz they know there's always someone at home since Mama can't go anywhere. I don't mind them coming for a while... but staying a few days, making our house a hotel... that is so not right when my mom is unwell. Being a good host.. we make sure that breakfast is served and the car is available (with one of us as driver of course!) whenever possible. I think they ought to be considerate with my mom's condition... she needs a good environment to heal in... not waking up and worrying if they had any food for breakfast. I had to spend a few days entertaining the cousins that tagged along... tiring! I didn't have my room to myself too! that is even more depressing!

Relatives come and go.. so the cycle repeats itself too. God! it's tiring.. physically and emotionally. I'd rather spend time with my frens. Now, some other relatives are at my house. huhuhu.


Other things...
My younger brother is back for his 1-month break. He got his new civic delivered few days ago... and he bought a canon 40D. He'll be leaving both for me to care for when he goes back to work. hehehe but i don't think i want to play much with it... since it's not mine. I'll get mine when i work. Right now... i don't really want anything coz i know, i can't afford it. no feeling whatsoever.

other other things...
I think it's been 4 nights since i had last slept at home (i lost count :p). I slept over at A's place the whole time... i go home for a few hours to see my parents then i'd go to her place. So i was rarely home. After some downtime... dealing with the relatives & all... i feel good being able to be there for a fren in need. I need good company too... so it's a good thing. A starts opening up about a few things... i'm glad she finally share something. She was in pain most of the time... but she did conceal it well. Nobody else noticed it. I wish i could help... but all i can do is just be there.

About being there... i always try to make myself available for the frens that need me most. I might have neglected a few frens in doing so but i think i have to do it. I can only do so much. That's why when some frens ask if i wanna hangout, i never confirm anything. Coz i want to make myself available.. i know a few frens may need me more. But i do try my best to make everybody happy. many times... A used to tell me to go out with my other frens & have fun... coz i don't go out much these days... and she knows why & i think she feels guilty. but i always tell her... "they have each other, u only have either me or C.. " and C is so bz most of the time... so she only has me. It's not that she doesn't have many frens... many want to be her frens but i guess they just don't know how. And her bestfren is halfway across the globe. Besides, i don't want to regret not being there :( coz if something bad happens and i was out having fun at the same moment... I would regret it for the rest of my life.


Badminton...
OK.. i missed monday futsal so i went for the badminton tonite. I am so NOT fit now! but i did sweat out & it felt nice. Hungout with the girls til 11+pm. Spending time with them has always been pleasant. It was nice. KE went with me so we talked along the way to subang & back. I asked about working... since i'm going to have to apply for a job soon. She mentioned some nice things about the companies i want to work with... now i'm excited & can't wait to work. The ultimate job would be me working overseas.. expat life! UK would be a nice place... dreaming hehehe :p

Btw, KI going to Pangkor for the Raya shoot. but she's going on tuesday n i hv class so i cn't tag along. huhu! I'm going to be bz with homework anyway.