FAMILY TROUBLE

Granny has been staying here for over a month now... Dad insisted she stays here. He doesn't want her to go back and pick on his youngest sister... creating trouble in the little family. That particular auntie of mine came over with the huby and 3 kids... they stayed over for 1 night. I was out... too many people at home so i went for peace at H's place that night. Of course i didn't know wat happened that night... til about 3 days ago. Granny keeps bringin up the subject, hinting me into asking when i choose to not interfere with my auntie's family affairs. Tired of hearing her talking and not making any sense in my mind... i asked.

Turned out they had an open session between granny, Dad, Mom, Auntie & uncle.. a lot was said and tears were flowing... especially my Aunt. Granny said she didn't say much coz she doesn't want to make things worst. I don't know about that... coz i think she didn't say much bcoz she can't accept the fact that her daughter had opened up to her brother after all these years... and she's blaming granny for causing problems in her family... and i believe my aunt.. coz i had seen it happening all along... i just didn't want to interfere. Granny was upset coz Dad now knows the real truth and is backing up his sister.. everybody else is on my aunts side. Granny is one possessive person... it is scary how she turns situations to achieve her means. Of course it wasn't anything physical... it has always been mental games.

Yesterday my other auntie came to stay for the school holidays with her 2 youngest sons. She is my favourite aunt, always supportive & makes us nieces & nephews feel comfortable talking of our personal issues with her. She has her issues too but she was always there if u ask. i never knew wat really happened to her when i was very young but i know it was the hardest time of her life. Last night mom told me that my aunt was crying her heart out talking about that hard time.. i cried knowing that she was suffering when she all smiles to me when i was a kid. Now it all make sense. Finally i know.. and i am so proud and amazed with my aunt. ANd how God has turned things around to prove granny wrong and yet granny does not learn in defense of her ego. Poor granny... i feel sorry for her. I tried talking some sense into her... but she never listens.

She always tells me to always pray to God... for which she knows i rarely pray other than say my prayers every night before sleeping. She has always pray, alway reciting the Quran.. religiously speaking, she's one good muslim... in that sense. But as those people in the old times... they tend to separate the religious rituals and the way of life.. the Ad-Din was not well understood nor well practiced. Thus sometimes granny's actions seem to contradict her preaching... those are th times that made granny in her state now. I'm not in the position to teach her... she won't listen. I do it slow... when she starts saying nonsense then i'd bring up the subject of faith & God... that'd make her quiet coz I'm right but she doesn't learn... coz her perception of me is that I'm the product of modern world who fails to embrace Islam as the way of life... she doesns't understand that, by not having physical proof that i practice islam, doesn't mean i live in ignorance.

It is frustrating how things turn out... teling every details of the family will take ages to write... i could wirte 1000-page book and may not have all the details. I'll see how things goes.. if it requires me to speak up for my parents, my brothers or myself... then i will. For now.. i'll just leave it as it is...