Ya Allah, i can't stop crying

A rainy day...

Today is a gloomy day.. whenever it comes across my mind, i feel terribly sad. I wish i can do something. Pls tell me so i can do something... I've been asking that for a few years now... The thing that i wanted so much to have an answer to.

Now i'm home.. got in my room in time before breaking down & crying. I've seen it for a long time.. almost everytime! Nothing had ever humbled me more... And nothing can make this tears flow as easily. And i have never looked up to anyone as high as this one person. There must be something in the heart that is too great beyond anybody's mind. My last post... i said i understood coz i've seen it numerous times. Right now... I am saying i do understand but i don't know how deep it goes.. it's too deep for me to see. I was wrong. I am sorry for those words that hurt... coz i thot i knew.. Terribly sorry... :( I dn't know how to say it to u... but i think u'd read this somehow (sooner or later).


On other matter... Moving..
Before i had my 2-hour sleep last nite.. i got to think things over.. Moving won't make me feel better though i'd have some extra money.. mom was right.. money can't make me happy. I'd rather be here... available to those important to me. I'd sacrifice a little to hopefully make a huge difference... I WILL BE HERE.

*i dn't believe i'm overreacting.. it's wat i currently feel. yes, i am emotional.