One of the things I can't live without...

Writing.

Those following me during my GB years, those still following me on this blog and a few other social networking pages would know that I write what i feel better than talking about it. It is hard for me to let go of this blog in the first place... so i shall write again. Those who follow asked why i stopped... for which i choose not to elaborate on. But know one thing... I appreciate your concern and support. Thank you so very much :)

I cannot find words to describe how happy I am right this very moment, that I have chosen to write again. The only place I can share my thoughts and the walks of life. The 'friend' that had spent so much time with me... to know how much tears I shed writing. Those tears flowed with the words i typed.. mostly in sorrow and sadness... some in joy and happiness. Those tears were never seen by others but only read. Those tears were never visible through my words as my limited knowledge of words limits the descriptive words to visualize those feelings and emotions correctly.

It has been almost 10 months since. A lot had happened. I changed... for which i believe, for the better. Lots of tears... drenched pillows were my company. A few friends provide comfort and smiles to walk me through some tough patches. A little baby made me realize a lot of things... made me see things through a new set of eyes. The baby that evoked so many feelings i never knew I had. That little wonder is God's gift for my very dear friend as reward for her will and strength to continue walking on the endless rocky road. That precious gift and a few others changed me to what I am today... the better me. I had been writing but never were they published here or anywhere else. They were for my record lest i forget as time flies me by.

As for the title of the blog.. it is still the same. My life on the fifth page. The first four pages are the previous stages of my life.. the pages I've flipped for the result of each page had brought me on to a new page until i reached the 5th page. The fifth page is where I learned of life as an adult. The fifth page is where i remain until now. It has become a very long page as i refuse to turn a new page. I am not writing on the 6th page anytime soon because I don't want the fifth page to be of less significance because of a new page. So let me be here for as long as I can. Let me remember every little story on this page. Let it shape what I am and develop as I do. Let it be a big part of me. Let it be something I can reflect on. Let it be my life no matter how many times I choose to start life anew. I shall write on this very long page to represent the long road I've crawled, walked, ran, tumbled, jumped and stood on.

.. and I shall write again.

Until then...
Until then...