limitations

Limitation...

Some have been complaining that i hvn't spent much time with them... sorry, but the timing wasn't right. One said that "hari lain boleh diselamatkan... dgn kitorg xleh plak" ... didn't bother to explain that in depth... the real thing was... the days i was saved by H was the days when rescue was possible. The days they wanted me to go out was the days i had to go send off my relatives at the airport (that was saturday & sunday evening). That one person was also the one that hung out with me that saturday night :P .. she wasn't exactly complaining.. she said "memain je.." ;)

To all my BR frens.. sorry i wasn't available. If it had been near my place, i may have joined, even for a while... but when i only have 2-3 hours and u r away in KL... that wasn't enuff time.

Now that my parents are back here... i myself hv decided not to go out late at night anymore... dn't want them to get upset. So now, when i go out, i will be home by 10pm or a bit later if i'm watching a movie but never pass midnight. Well.. maybe exception for futsal night, sometimes. hehehe.

The semester opens in july... but starting this week, i'll be bz preparing the final project's proposal... I'll be working on it with H. Good that i hv H coz she cn work fine with me... we tried working with others before but didn't work out too good... so decided we shud stick together for the final semester. She's always 1st in class... i got the best hehehe.

Speaking of H... she & her hubby, C had me follow them shopping.. it was kind of "paksa-rela" thing coz i didn't want to go at first... but C insisted and was willing to go bck to my hse (i was at their house) for me to change, so i didn't know how to say no... while i was changing, Abah was chatting with them downstairs... planning golf with C, already! Went out to Gardens for a late lunch...then (they) shop, shop, shop. C as always insist that i take something... he paid for my Evisu T the other time so i'm not going to take on the offer... there wasn't any new designs anyway, why waste? Suggested a pair of crocs.. said no. I am not comfortable receiving too often. I'd rather people give me wateva they want to give instead of having me pick out wat i want.. that would spare the awkwardness. I do appreciate the thought but it's just not me to take on the offers everytime. One thing H has yet to understand... just observe what i like & buy it for me.. don't have me pick out things and let u pay for it.

btw, they bought a Bose system for their hall... I was sitting with H at one of the demo area while C was inquiring.. told H "if u hv this system at ur house.. i'll go there everyday!" (she was happy coz i only go about once every 3 months or so) coz i thought C wasn't going to buy it. I was wrong! he bought it (he hadn't heard wat i said, of course)!... so H was smiling "now u hv to go to my place everyday!" ... "he didn't buy the TV.. so i dn't hv to go everyday.. maybe a few days hehehe"


Updates on A...

she made a decision to stop her meds for some reason. I am against it but knowing her, i could not have made any difference. I don't know wat she's suffering so i can't really have an opinion. I'm respecting her choice. few weeks bck she gave me her bank acc PIN... told me to give away her money to a group of people when she dies... thought she was joking. Why me when she has others that know better. Few days back she repeated the same thing again... so i told her to tell the others so they know I'm supposed to take care of that matter...
"wasiat jgn buat main2.. kenapa u bagi i benda berat cmni?"
"coz u already know my PIN.." and i know that's not the real reason.
I don't know why she chose to tell me... but as always, watever makes her happy is fine with me. Just hope that it would not happen soon... and hope that i still remember when it happens sooo much later. Pls God, give her more time.

Of A.. i don't know how i feel anymore. Sometimes... I'm sad when i see her sad/sick.. I'm happy when i see her laugh. In order to make her laugh... takes so much effort coz i'm not used to making people laugh so much... but i'm getting the hang of it now :) Yesterday, shopping made her so happy... coz the DKNY store manager was so nice she released the clothes at sales price even though the sales is 2 weeks away and we didn't even ask for discounts.. A was sooo happy. She was sad today.. i almost dragged her to the store again. We'll be going bck to the store in a week... hope those people are still there to make us happy :) i shud ask their names next time.