Indifferent

I am feeling indifferent...

as always... its hard to know wat i feel... i guess i didn't try hard enuff to put definition or justification to wat i feel... it's tiring and i'd end up rustrated.

Now... i feel the distance. Now i feel i'm drifting away. Should i be bothered by it? i don't want to but i'm human, i get bothered some times. I don't want to answer to my doubts... i refuse to. I'll leave it hanging... if anyone care to answer, i'd be willing to hear... otherwise i'll just shut up and go with the flow.

It was not the fact that i got to know afterwards... it was the fact that once again S failed to fake it to me. And i wasn't calling with the intention to pry anyway... coz i didn't have a clue... yet she's hiding some thing... no wonder she sounded different. So i'm not going to care the next time it happens... I'm going to pretend it didn't happen. Honestly, I'm impressed there wasn't envy... I'm happy they had a great time... I can smile and laugh listening to their stories. Just upset over 1 minor thing... it'll go away by the time i see S the next time.


Other things...

The same things for the past few weeks... assignments, tests, presentations etc... 2 weeks to go. Then we'll get the long awaited 2 month break. Can't wait for the bandung trip... i wanna have fun! It's been so long since i had spent quality time with them all. And i know... we're all excited about the trip.

June... Phuket trip planned. Purchasing tix 2moro i hope. Went with Ira to renew her passport today. took us 3 hours... gov office never change i guess. It was not so boring... since we always try to find amusement in everything and everyone passing by. Dw texted me about the final project...case was, Ira & i just let go of our other member... we can't find ways to work with or accomodate him anymore. So it'll be the 2 of us. Besides, we find it hard to work with others... we just don't think on the same wavelentgh... our advisor supports us anyway... so i dn't see a problem in this. While everybody has finalized their proposals... as usual, we're still not working towards it... we only have the title hahaha! we'll work it out somehow... it's always been that way so i dn't worry too much.

Mama's going back to Pakistan 2moro... so gotta go spend time with her now... will continue later...
XOXO