New Year 2008

New Year, New Me?

don't think a new year would make me change. I may change a lil here and there... but no major changes. For me... there's no significance of having to change every new year. There is also no resolution set (there was never one)... I would change whenever i feel like changing, no need to wait for the new year.

2007 was a roller coaster ride, with at least 5 loops, the kind where u don't see the track before u go on... one hell of a ride. U know.. how u'd feel ok just before each loop and then suddenly it goes thru some ridiculous mix of feelings and emotions at high speed during the loop course of the ride... after the loop, u'd get to calm down and things start to smoothen.. then bang! another loop. the cycle goes on and on... and by the time i reach the last loop... i was numbed... i don't even care if it never stops... or if it gets off track. It's hard to feel... i just forget how to feel. If it was a good feeling during the ride, i don't remember... if it's bad, i don't remember either. Numb. indifferent.

Now... this moment... 1st day of 2008... i started to reflect on whatever memories (not so much) that my brain had managed to capture and kept in accessible memory in some part of my brain.

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Welcome 2008... may this year brings more joys and happiness to us all. Happy New Year.