Korban

Yesterday was supposed to be about korban or sacrifice. But for the 1st time... there wasn't any korban going on from our family @ granny's.. coz it was our last minute plan to gather there and Mama said she doesn't like how Kelantanese especially granny manage korban there... maybe they don't understand korban the way we do here. I am not going to explain how they got it kind of wrong here... coz i'm not in a position to do that... we'll reserve our views on that and share it with close frens and family only. So yesterday was spent @ granny's.. 29 of us in the house... 4 families. We didn't do much.. just stayed in the house and eat and talk. It was raining the whole day... everybody stayed in. It was nice... granny is all smiles. so we're happy :)

Korban (paying for parts or a whole cow to be donated to the poor) is something physical and it has a deeper significance. It's where we sacrifice a little of ours for some less fortunate families' joy. It's about giving up some of what is ours for the happiness of others .. and we should also find happiness in it... and it is also about sacrificing something that is of value to us for others to gain value from it... be it in life or in love.

This year... i've come to know someone very dear to me whom i think will define the word 'sacrifice' almost perfectly. I dn't think i have had a fren who would give so much for the happiness of others.. and as response to that, i've had mixed feelings about it... 1stly, i don't like to see my fren having less of what is hers while some undeserving people are taking every single bit they can... without guilt and not even some gesture of gratitude. 2ndly, i can't even describe how i look up to this fren and how i adore the patience & strength. It touched me and humbled me... that i included her name in my prayers yesterday. (yes, i did pray)