I hate goodbyes :(

All done with the exams... just 1 session of viva to go. The exams weren't that hard... i did prepare for them so i know what to write to at least get a B... but anything less than A- is something i don't want to get.

There were a few people in the class that have managed to keep up their record for the past three semesters... copying without getting caught! me n a few frens know wat they were doing... we just didn't want to cause any tension in the class, i guess. There was no shame or guilt as they write down the answers. I'd like to think it's a loss for them, coz they paid and didn't learn from it. Me n the rest of the class studied for the exam... although me n 2 other frens did a last minute revision... we think we can still answer the exams... how hard can it be?... especially when u have far more time than the three of us combined! Some people just like it cheap and easy.

I'm not saying I'm for or against people copying in exams... i coulnd't have cared less if they were discreet. But making it obvious to all the others in the class is not something u shud be proud of.

Then there was this thing with the final project.. the applied research. U have 6 months of planning and another 6 months to work it... even if u think u can do it towards the end, make sure u have a plan to make sure u have it done in time! I'm not complaining about my partner... we work very well together, it's not a problem... we can deliver. That other girl and her team in particular (and probably a few others)... they dn't even hv a clue about wat they were doing... i hate it when people don't try to understand things they do... doesn't it mean anything to them. What rules do they live by? Machiavellianism? Yes, that sounds right although i'm not sure i spelled it right hehehe.

1st of al, they were so ambitious on their research title... I tried to tell them it wasn't a good choice when they 1st went for it... but i dn't think they take me seriously. I was kind enuff to share my thought! they went ahead. The worst thing.. they didn't hv a good plan. Their plan was to wait for all the data to come to them... and if it doesn't happen, they'd just make up their own! Hahaha! Ironically their topic was on benchmarking! To make the story short... they didn't even try to retrieve the data... blaming those people (whom i know are not capable of understanding the terms they used in the questionnaire!) for failing to return it to them. For God's sake... it's not their freaking job to make sure u hv what u need! U're suppose to hv a plan! P-L-A-N.. how stupid can u be?? I secretly wish that they get tangled up in their own lies @ the viva.

Then there was about S and her team mates... poor her for having to cover for them. They are definitely not contributing to the project. Even when they contribute... it's useles, worthless. Yesterday while i was discussing with Ira about our final report and presentation, S came and showed us her group's final report. Ira started reading the 1st few pages and she had lots to say... i glanced up from the laptop screen to look... but she said "Baik u jangan tengok... nanti sakit jiwa." coz she knew i'm obsessed with correcting sentences... and knowing that she doesn't normally comment much on others' work... it must have been really bad. so i got back to work on our report :) saved me from being mentally disturbed ;)

Btw... thursday was really a bad day for me. After the exam, it was good but when we were walking back to our car, S mentioned about this being the final one and we're not living this life anymore. Suddenly, it felt like i've been knocked real hard with the realization. it's over. i have to move on. I was so sad all of the sudden. Containing it was hard. So i was very quiet, i wasn't in my very best mood. my mind drifted off so many times... i didn't even notice it when my fren was telling me about her hard time studying the night before. She told me about it later, that was how i knew.

It's hard to move on... i hate goodbyes. I've said too many goodbyes in my life... everytime i have to say it, it hurts even more. I used to keep my distance... but when we hv frens, they will come closer each day. I am so used to having them around, they've been a part of me... when i know that i won't be able to see them that often, it saddens me. And i'm afraid, when i adjust myself to the change... i tend to forget easily.. i'd remember if there is a reminder. I just don't want the reminder to come about too late as they normally do... then, i'll be too far away to mend things. Hopefully not... coz i know i couldn't bear the frustration later.